HEALING IS NOT LINEAR: MY JOURNEY

 I Stopped Chasing Perfect Healing and Started Choosing Honest Healing.

Every rough page will always have silver lining, but it takes your courage to keep fighting. My mother's warning was a stone in my pocket, "People are mirrors and some will only ever show you a crack that can cut your hand". I was in my early twenties when I met this beautiful lady whom I had considered a genuine and beautiful soul by then, but l had I forgotten, 'To over trust is to hand someone a knife that can cut you'. 

She really seemed to part of my world but, some people seem too good to be true. Months had passed when I got into a relationship and as my beloved friend, I had to share the great news with her. She looked pretty much happy for me but never judge a book by its cover because that costed my happiness in my relationship a lot. Till today I don't really know or understand what connected the two as stars in a constellation. 

My boyfriend started despising me a lot, he was being rough and loose in speech in a way that shocked me because he was never like that. When I told my friend about it, she said just talk to him nicely probably he has a lot in mind but to me that would never be an excuse. One day we decided to go out, just few mins before I left my house he called me saying he won't be around something urgent came and as an understanding girlfriend I took it lightly but that became my weakness. Instead, I had to go out to my friend's place just to play games since I was now free for the whole weekend. 

It was just a Netflix and chill thing, so she had connected her laptop to the television with an HDI cable so that we can watch movies, but it gave her so much trouble then I decided to help and then boomsh!!!!! chats of her and my boyfriend got displayed on the whole screen. Given the fact that I had saw a glimpse of the chats I forced things out to see the whole thing and yep!! my boyfriend was around but instead he had asked my friend to help him boycott me and go see his side cheek. 

I got so much dejected because it wasn't only one person that he had been seeing but about three of them and my friend was helping her cover up. I got so much angry at myself because how can something like that happen just right under my nose but yes it had already happened the least, I could do was choose myself and let them from the one I had considered my sister from another mother. 

After that it took me a lot to get friends again because I was now so skeptical with everyone around me and I didn't trust anyone at all.

We were great of greatest friends ever and everyone envied us because of the bond we shared but that was just the beginning of the turmoil. I became so comfortable that she would literally know every detail about me probably what I eat and every second and where I would be she would be there too, as expected it became a fault line on which our friendship trembled.

 I had to have a real introspection of everything and figure out my life and live it for the better whilst not worrying about other people after all each one of us has their own way of healing from bad our adversities. The least I can say never limit yourself from moving because of your past experiences everything happens for a reason just to make you stronger and meeting up with people who will disappoint or have disappointed us is all meant for our growth not only that but to also expect anything from life after all hard times come and pass they never kill. 

IF THE NIGHT ARE DARK JUST LEAR TO DRINK IT UP WITH YOUR TEARS - EVERYTIME YOU TRUST ALWAYS LEAVE ROOM FOR DISAPPOINTMENT